ExChristianDotNet (exchristian_net) wrote in extian,

[Testimonies of Ex-Christians] Running afoul of GOD

Sent in by Nick M I like to occasionally visit this site and read
testimonials of people who've drifted away from their faiths, and
admire the courage of many of them. Still, one thing strikes me every
time I hear it, and that is the fear associated with giving up one's
faith. I can understand the stigmas associated with it, affecting your
family and friends, but I'm talking about the, if I may be so blunt,
illogical fears associated, such as the continued belief one might
still 'run afoul' of god. Just so you understand where I'm coming from,
let me give you a little backstory on myself.My childhood was as normal
as any suburban family. I went to church every Sunday, never asking
questions, just listening attentively, and waiting for the reverend to
rescind his pulpit so I could go home and play Super Mario BrosAt the
age of eight, my life took what some would call a rather startling
turn, though I know for a fact it was the best thing that could have
happened to me at such a critical time in my childhood development. It
was Christmas morning, I’m not entirely sure of the exact year, and I
happened down the hallway, excited as ever to see what gifts Santa had
left for me under the tree, only to catch my parents in the final
stages of putting together the bicycle I had begged for in my lengthy
letter to the North Pole. It would be an understatement to say this
came as quite a shock, but my parents gave me the classic explanation
of how there really is no Santa Claus, Tooth Fairy, or Easter Bunny.
Though I wasn’t told this specifically, I naturally assumed god was
just another imaginary character my parents told me about so I would be
good, or something. Just to re-iterate, I was eight years old and much
more concerned about Sonic the Hedgehog on my Genesis than any
philosophical questions that might naturally arise when someone loses
their faith. That's how I became an atheist.Over the next few years, I
continued to learn about atheism, and developed myself as a somewhat
outspoken atheist in my small community. I waited until I was 14 to
tell my parents that I was an atheist, and although visibly
disappointed at first, they still understood that I was serious, and
allowed me to go my own way, as it were. For this, I will forever be
grateful. Occasionaly, I would be drawn in to debate the reasons behind
my beliefs (or lack therof, rather), but those arguments were trounced
pretty quicky, as the average 15 year old xian kid isn't very
knowledgeable, especially about their own religion, when it comes to
arguments for the existence of god. That leads me to this point in my
life.Going back to my original point, though, I can understand some
fears that come along with giving up god, such as the idea that there
is no afterlife. I can see how that may be hard to cope with at first,
and it's long been my idea that that though is what drives many into
the 'safety net' of religion, but the idea itself has always brought me
comfort. The assurance that I'm not being judged for every little
mistake, and that I can live my life and not have to answer to anyone
but myself. I don't know... maybe it's just me, but I would still like
some feedback either way. Thank You.To monitor comments posted to this
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